3d smallpops (practice)

THAT's IT! I'm fed up with 2d art!!!LOL I'm jumping 3d!!!

Nah, I just wanna practice some 3d stuff in my arsenal, Stuff's getting rusty but I think it looks good to me, gotta prepare my repetoir of digital art skills for a looming migration up ahead, plus I don't have to draw em' characters cause I just have to animate and pose them! 3d is really cool, especially new programs nowadays with new graphical effects and technology like shader 3.0, bump mapping, large texture formats, particle physics and hair fur effects, and whole wikipidia of nerd words. :)

I hope I get runned down by a bus.

bibisil

Here's another DP, hope yah like it. :)

Peace

Yup reworking some of my past ideas with my current skill and knowledge in digital arts, I'ma gonna focus now on 3d modeling and animation cause frankly 2d is a hard media to be doing if you want animation in it. plus 3d is really the future of media arts, I thinkI'm gonna ride on it! YAAAOOHHOOOoooo! haha

Kindred Spirits.

You always feel what I feel, You think what I think, you like what I like, You say what I say. You laugh what I joke, You smile when I smile, I love what you love, My mood is your mood, Nitpicks are what we pick, the detail is almost surreal to not notice, Your troubles are my troubles, My music is your music, It's almost perfect for us, or is it already? Perfect is what you need and I am not, I already know life sucks, but after I found you, I would've not wasted one second not to live without you, I don't want to go back to that place where I don't know what to do and no sense of direction is all I feel, I don't think you need me, when the time comes, I'll be on my way, if only I was strong enough right now to stay, Only if you'd fight for me, I know This is not a mistake, cause the biggest mistake that I would do in my life is walk away and mistakes are all what I've been doing all my life, I hope you find the best man, for I am far from the best, I strive to be better, accidents are always never expected, but I'd love to be in this accident again. I am sorry if I have to forcibly contradict myself to you, cause I have no power enough to say what I want to say, If only we were different entities and in a different situation, I would have crossed the finish line with you,

My heart is your heart.

just another day

Feeling sad and lonely, I don't think I can take anymore of this... Feels like I'm withering away, would like to tell her but should'nt, I wanna burst in joy, and brace for the impact but knowing it's all in my head brings me down to the ground again, I wanna start a new life, to clear my head.

A good book for CON artists.

The GAME written by: Neil Strauss

There's a book that was sent to me by a friend who gave me advice on meeting girls, One drunken sad night at a bar, I was rambling about being how lonely I am lately, He suggested to read a book called "The game", that book would teach me how to attract the opposite sex. It would give ways how to get the girl you want, So me getting my head cleared up with all the art studying I was doing, sat down and read the E- book he sent, at first, the book introduced the character, He was a 30 something writer, bald , pale skin, weakly, and Scrawny. So not me... told his early beginnings from his first blow, to his first F..k, the story goes yadda, yadda, yadda, He was so much a "loser" that he only had sex with one girl and that he vowed one day to get every girl he wanted, He stumbled upon this website that talks to guys about how to pick up women, A forum that teaches and answers every question that frustrated guys would ask how to bag the girl he wants, He met a master pick up artist called Mystery in the website and they met personally and the story went on.

The Book teaches how men should use techniques on girls that would seduce them in subconscious ways such as using a move called neg (a negative compliment that would be used to get the girls attention. -in other words, teasing) and some magic tricks that would give the Pick up artists some entertainment tools for the girl to notice, So much more to remember but I forgot the other dirty little tactics that would end men up in bed with them, he pointed out that this should only be used in good intentions and that no one should not use it in evil ways, I say FUCK him, yeah FUCK him. This kind of technique / thinking destroys families, relationships and people, a popular comic book line said: With great power comes great responsibilities, people having this knowledge should really be careful on how they should use it on. Call me a cynic but Peter Parker only exists in comic books, I may be feminine sounding but yeah, with this knowledge men would REALLY fuck around, No doubt, and to those who practice it, Just stay away from my family.

In ending this blog I shall say that people are different from each other and life cannot be controlled, no matter way shape and form.

Huli

Still learning speed painting and digital painting all by myself tho... Gotta master and learn more techniques like mood, lighting, perspective, anatomy, style, and alot more! I'm really up to the challenge cause really this is what I want to do with my life, art, not just any art... My art, I have this dream of working for some big animation / game company and I'd really love to apply for a concept artist there, That's why I'm freeing up more time to master my craft, It's still a long way to go but I'd rather do this now than not try at all.


I found this guy on the internet named Bobby Chiu, He's a very great Digital graphic illustrator and painter from Canada and teaches art in Toronto, he has some very inspiring tips for young artists (such as myself err..) and really gives me the drive to really pursue this, Well, as they say in that rat movie, Rattatouile... "Anyone can cook!" :D Here's his porfolio, http://digital-bobert.cgsociety.org/gallery/290104/ All his works are out of this world, he has this very light hearted funny and realistically painted characters that is really endearing to the first time lookers, I wish I could get to his level sooner, OH WELL, practice makes perfect! and Perfect makes MONEY!!! :D Wish me luck!:D

Songs and relationships 2

To know that there's someone that would be there until the last minute of our existence, Thus we jump to the song by Deathcab for cutie called: What Sarah said. There's a line there, That "Love is watching someone die", An invisible tear ran at the side of my cheek when I first heard that song, real ones came out when I heard that line, I could relate to that, having family members die in front of me, really sticks a needle in my heart when that song plays.

My grandpa and I were close in his later years, He was funny supportive and extremely smart, He was a great man, One morning he was hard at breathing I tried everything in my power to save him, cpr, mouth to mouth breathing, blood circulation, everything I know and what my Aunt gave advice on the phone, Still he died, the look on his face was so imprinted in my head, He was in excrutiating pain, breathing heavily, tired and so lost and scared, After the initial shock and the last death grip in his body, His face calmed down, I have never seen a man's face so calm, then it dawned at me, Pops was dead, at first I was so shocked, I could'nt really process the thoughts and confusion that was going thru at that time, I was in drone mode, everything felt automatic, I held my tears and drove him to a hospital, I was thinking maybe he was still hanging on, maybe there's a couple of years left in him, more time for me to show him and tell him how great his life was, how great a man he became and was, I was his number one fan.

Doc said no deal, it already ended, still no tears had been shed, I thought better accept the fact that we all die, why feel pain when dying at an old age? No tears should be spent, It's futile. I went home to get some things for his burial service, I rested in my room and turned on the radio, just to keep my ears distracted just for a little bit. A song came up,

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black
And I held my toungue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangcock to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
Cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rooms

If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark





Tears fell. I've never felt that way in a song before.
When I'm ready...
I will follow you in the dark.

Songs and relationships

A band called Stereophonics sang a song called Maybe tommorow, I used to listen to it way back, I like the riffs and melody of the song, one thing I don't really get was the lyrics... Why find your / his way home? Is he lost or something? Does he need assistance in getting his home address cause he had amnesia? What? What is he singing about?

Then lately (I guess I'm a late bloomer) I kinda feel the same way, Love lost and love found, Careers end and has just begun, A family that loves and supports, friends that are always there, blind faith but after all that ends... Where will you turn to? That song's line: "Maybe tommorow I'll find my way home" It's in line with the great question in every human's mind, Why am I here? What is the meaning of life? What should I live for? Family, Given... Friends, well... . Money, nah. But deep down there's something more, Yes the answer is obvious, The Girl.

I have not really been in a relationship that deep to really know and feel what Phonics was talking about, Maybe tommorow I'll find her way home, that rings good, And I think it would feel good that someone would Love, accept and understand who you are. That would feel so good indeed.

Untitled work in prog

Restless nights your always in my head
My mind feels so clear it's made of lead
Your always making me think that I'm dead
This dream of mine I don't want it to end

Chorus:

I, I don't wanna fly/die,
without seeing you smile,
just for one last time

I can't justify my rights
with out saying goodbye
I don't want you to cry

Drawerings Dino Jr. lyrics

Do you know that it's alright?
I been thinkin', seein' that's not how it's gotta be
Ain't sayin' if it's worth the fight
I'm a space but you can count on me to save your place
And I know it's all to do with you and me
Do you know if you're against the deal? We'll wait and see
But I'd love to hear that story once again
It's the only part of me you still defend

Did you know I heard your voice?
But when I call to see if you're around, I have no choice
Then the news is in my face
Took a step to let the feeling go and lost my place
And I swear I hear the same thing every night
Once again no one counted for the hours I spent

I baked as any time I drifted out of sight
Remember when you didn't need this time to mend
Anywhere you'd like to go
Would it help to be inside the life I couldn't know?
If your shaken it won't show
Hold out for me, 'cause bailin' at this point is really low.
And I know it's all to do with just a friend
And I can't decipher messages you send
But I'd love to hear that story once again
It's the only part of me you still defend

My sentiments exactly....

A human being should be able to change a diaper, plan an invasion, butcher a hog, conn a ship, design a building, write a sonnet, balance accounts, build a wall, set a bone, comfort the dying, take orders, give orders, cooperate, act alone, solve equations, analyze a new problem, pitch manure, program a computer, cook a tasty meal, fight efficiently, die gallantly. Specialization is for insects.

--Robert Heinlein

Keeping the faith..

Done in Corel Painter 9 and 1.5 hours, Digital acrylic paint and brittle brushes.

edited in CS2.

Add a little effort in that please!

This pic is from a good friend and my sister's best friend Michelle Seiling, She asked me if I can do a portrait of her just like I did with my face, so me at that time was looking for something to paint took up the challenge AND:


Came up with this...

She looked more cartoony this way, and she lost some of her features because of the transition.
I felt dumb sending this to her, (that and a complaint from deviantart! LOL), So I reworked on this image and came up with a new one...

Thus resulting the final image..
I used references other than that the BG and clothes and body came in my head. It's all in the head really. ;p Painted entirely from PS CS2, wacom intous and my ever so clumsy hands.

Drumming her way

Vector art for my band mate and a great friend Lorraine May Concepcion, This used to be posted on her friendly social network website but apparently already deleted it. *sob

Any hoo, Done entirely in vectors, All the highlights and stuff, did a little color blending for that "rastered" look but was working too closly at the canvas I forgot how zoomed in I was so I did'nt really saw the real perspective. Darn! Kinda like my life... Ain't it ironic?

Surrounded by concubines....

Yeah right. I wish. But really... That kind of life is not for me, I'd rather go home to a real loving wife at that than have all these women at the snap of my finger, cause frankly, I'm not a player, I'm also not a really dumb schmuck, well... Maybe a little bit of a shmuck but Life is waay too short to get to know a person, I guess if the essence is still there... Life is really about spending time to really connect with someone and...

THAT I think I'm not really doing. I just feel stuck in my life right now, I have this great big plans, wanting a good future for myself and people in my life that I get too scared of that not happening, What if I end up being a nobody? If someone asks me what is your greatest fear? I'd say dying without really doing something significant with my life.

Really, The cliche was true... When I were young, I felt as if no one can stop me, I felt things are going to be better that I'd live forever and let things just slide away. Maybe it's just a health thing or just a golden era, but looking back It's just all blinding immaturity, How I wish I can strangle myself and punch myself in the head for not realizing it sooner, Yes others has got it made, some don't, so people who don't, search for their happiness, their meaning of existence, not all find it and get to where they want to be, Please God let it not be me but if faith is kind enough just to let me taste a little REAL glory and little REAL love in life I would be more than content to die, fulfilled.

And to that note, I will leave you a tribute for myself, just before I die, at least I did and art for my fugly mug, ladies and gents...

The cyber me:

More stuff to upload...

Too vivid movie, too vivid tribute art... LOLFirst time I've unlocked the secret to using texture brushes! Booyah!

First attempt at speed painting, Might I say done horribly.




My first corel painter IX file...



Vector smiling random girl:

Marvel Characters

When I was like 12 I used to collect tons of Marvel Comic books, all sorts of them, I had like 3 boxes of the really good ones in my collection, but when I was in highschool I kinda out-grown them. I gave and sold them all away, It was one of my dumbest moves I made in my entire life, Now I miss all of em' Good thing we have the internet! Nowadays you just type in the name of the comic you want then * bam, a fresh new issue in front of your pc! God really do love us! Amen.

All of em just popped in my head, No references used, I better use references tho, I have no anatomy knowledge... averaged about 6 hrs per piece. Not my best work but I do believe i'm getting better! :D




No more graphire 3 crud for me, I'm saying hello to my intous 3 now! Mwuah...

Carloborration

Did a little collab with a friend that digs comics, Carlo Subijano Male, 28, single, Possibly bi but almost straight, ready and available owner of Al's bar, just a little quick flicks with the wrist,

Huli the flower horn fish

A little cartoon character in my head... Still needs more improving, when I get the time and will-power I'll continue developing this idea, but for now... Just go with the flow "Huli"... haha.

Animation Practice

Practiced my frame by frame animation skills (if I had one) to tell you the truth this is my first and only shot at doing this type of work, I'm too distracted to really focus on one art type, that's why I'm really honing down on speed painting and digital painting, Hey I'm doing mother nature a favor by doing things digitally!:D




Done in photoshop cs (frames and color) animated in flash (frame by frame)

More old stuff

I have a deviantart account (www.jambs04.deviantart.com) and I stumbled upon this artist who's specialty is doing poster slogans and funny yet smart illustrations, I tried my shot at it...


Suffice to say I still don't have the inspiration to do more of this type of art...




What does 4 bottles of a very strong beer starts with red and ends with horse, a pack of cigarettes and a very good friend, do to your evening? You get...

AN EP cover for my band Ursaminor;


done in Photoshop cs and wacom graphire3.

The late early days...

Here's some of my early works back when I was just practicing and learning Photoshop and Flash MX 2 years ago or year and a half I think, I got more worked done tho but had a very nasty Hard disk crash and did'nt had the chance to salvage all of them. Expect the worse guys...

All their original files already kissed dust.*thank god...

WARNING: All of the stuff here are still at a crappy stage so bear with me! :D


Here's when I got my first wacom tablet, A Shitty little wacom graphire 3 I bought for myself.

Atleast I got to practice and learn from it and get alittle accustomed to tablets. How I learned digital art can be so different and can feel strange than a traditional art at a price... hehe

Here are some of my vector practices, Done in Photoshop CS, had a lot more of these but sadly again my HD croaked and had salvage only these files... *Sob.







In the begining... this was waaay back, right after I installed photoshop in my pc!

This was done with a mouse, MS bitmap and or Photoshop cs, nuthing special here... just a feeling. :P

Dissapointingly yours.

I'm dreaming of a space,
Where dreams are in place.
These times Oh why I waste?
Feels better when I'm with you,
better off with out you.
You use an excuse,
that you abuse.
Play a song hear the meaning.
Hear the meaning then play a song.
Need some competition from this repetition.
Faint smile for me to paint,
Lazer eyes that I always make.
Big house, fancy car,
My spouse, and my cigar.
Wondering how wonderful It would feel
If only the two of us were real.