Yeah right. I wish. But really... That kind of life is not for me, I'd rather go home to a real loving wife at that than have all these women at the snap of my finger, cause frankly, I'm not a player, I'm also not a really dumb schmuck, well... Maybe a little bit of a shmuck but Life is waay too short to get to know a person, I guess if the essence is still there... Life is really about spending time to really connect with someone and...
THAT I think I'm not really doing. I just feel stuck in my life right now, I have this great big plans, wanting a good future for myself and people in my life that I get too scared of that not happening, What if I end up being a nobody? If someone asks me what is your greatest fear? I'd say dying without really doing something significant with my life.
Really, The cliche was true... When I were young, I felt as if no one can stop me, I felt things are going to be better that I'd live forever and let things just slide away. Maybe it's just a health thing or just a golden era, but looking back It's just all blinding immaturity, How I wish I can strangle myself and punch myself in the head for not realizing it sooner, Yes others has got it made, some don't, so people who don't, search for their happiness, their meaning of existence, not all find it and get to where they want to be, Please God let it not be me but if faith is kind enough just to let me taste a little REAL glory and little REAL love in life I would be more than content to die, fulfilled.
And to that note, I will leave you a tribute for myself, just before I die, at least I did and art for my fugly mug, ladies and gents...
The cyber me:
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