Lately I have been sleepless, I guess anxiety and depression is really taking over, I try to hide it by being funny and dumb all the time, doing new stuff and thinking of new things to do with my life, tried drinking heavily, lightly, heavily again then I just decided to quit and get healthier just for the heck of it, music with my band, new friends I don't really give a damn about. Plans that just don't seem to push thru, an aging family issue, me being 26 years old still hasn't accomplished anything with my life worth while.
Have you ever been in a situation before where you really can't express your feelings toward someone that just feels right? , Thinking of her all the time never gets old, it's the thought of losing her I really am scared of, Here is a list why people should stay away from me.
I am empty and old.
I am obnoxious and unfunny to all.
I am a fucking know all but has experienced none.
I am rude and abrasive.
I am expressive and secretive all at the same fucking time.
I talk brave but am a coward.
I love but I don't get loved.
I want bad things to happen to good people.
I am the loser that everyone avoids.
It's not that I am an outcast, people just don't want to hangout with me.
I stink and smell bad even tho I shower.
I am conceited and too proud.
I talk big.
I get bitched slapped by the wrong people.
I have never stood up for myself.
I am too afraid of life.
I am too afraid of losing it.
I am too afraid of losing her.
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