If we could only hear our minds talking to each other.

Been really confused these past few years, think I'm really in love with this girl in my head and in my imagination, couldn't even talk to the real her in the real life, don't know where to start, always looking way ahead and in a negative manner about being in a relationship, I always look at the bad things that might happen, knowing It is wrong, yet using it as a defense mechanism, there are tons of times that I could've shown her how I feel, yet I chose to be a rock. Or something that hides under them, No one should hurt her.

I'm sorry if I was a jerk when I reacted differently, the time when I emailed you and telling you how thankful I am to have a friend like you.

or the time when you ask what's troubling me then I said it's a secret, didn't mean to make you feel left-out, it's just that, It's YOU that is running in my mind all the time and that troubles me.

Or the time when I haven't bought you a gift cause I did'nt know what you wanted and I didn't made an effort to think verrrrY hard what you wAnted in the confines of my very limited budget.

and the times when you feel lonely, I just want to comfort you with a sMile or a joke.